Something So Personal

by Makeshift Shelters

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released February 24, 2015

Ella Boissonault - vocals, synthesizer, guitar
Andrew Clark - guitar
Phil Edfors - bass, guitar
Chris Teti - guitar, trumpet
Paul Karcic - drums

additional vocals on "Darkest Nights" by David F. Bello

Cover photo by: Noorann Matties
Art/illustration by Lewes Herriot

Recorded and Engineered by Chris Teti at Silver Bullet Studios
Mastered by Bill Henderson at Azimuth Mastering

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Track Name: Opposite Directions
slow it down, i’ve had enough
i’m running out of ways to rationalize
the number of days you take in the dark
i’m running out of ways to say goodbye
what do we have now?
we’re nothing but the ghost of potential
when you don’t take the time to define things
you find the time to run away, run away

(you got lost) as fast as you can
(but I stayed here) the opposite direction
(you got lost) as fast as you can
(but i stayed here) fuck expectations

my thoughts move me to
places i don’t want to be, you don’t want to be
i can forget the promises
but not the feelings of your hands on me
when i was trying to end my tomorrow
you were aching for that taste of escape

(you got lost) as fast as you can
(but I stayed here) the opposite direction
(you got lost) as fast as you can
(but i stayed here) fuck expectations
Track Name: "This Song is Definitely Not About a Boy"
i was 16 when you first told me
not to hold your hand in front of your friends
you were always too you were always too punk
you were always listening to better bands
but i was pretty dumb and i was pretty young
because somehow you convinced me you were great
but you’ll never get that ugly sweater back
and btw that was a really shitty mixtape

i hope i never see you like that again
in the front of my car in the passenger’s seat
oh you look so ugly when you cry
learn to use your left hand in the middle of the night
so you can get to work on time, no more early morning mess
you say that you’re an anarchist
but you’ll never quit your day job

well i guess i gotta say i’m glad you moved on
because those drunk texts were getting really lame
and yeah she’s really pretty and yeah she’s really funny
but she’s just a less curvy version
of me myself and i, we’re so over it
me myself and i, we’re so done
me myself and i, we’re so over it
so done, so over it, so done, STOP CALLING ME

whoa whoa whoaaaa

i hope i never see you like that again
in the front of my car in the passenger’s seat
oh you look so ugly when you cry
learn to use your left hand in the middle of the night
so you can get to work on time, no more early morning mess

i hope i never see you like that again
in the front of my car in the passenger’s seat
oh you are so ugly inside (womp womp)
learn to use your left hand in the middle of the night
so you can get to work on time, no more early morning mess

oh oh oh oh
Track Name: Lighter Fluid
there’s nothing to stop me tonight
from kissing every boy who looks my way
and i wonder if i could fall in love
with every person here
because we’re all the same
and we’re all looking for somebody else
someone to take away the dark things that threaten to never leave
but i pity the fools who fall in love
nothing that makes you feel good can last
cuz if things were in terms of forever
they all lose their shine too fast

ironically the only things that go away
are the ones that were supposed to stay
but he only wants me in the night or in the day
when no one’s around
and i swear i could leave tonight and leave everything behind
for this godforsaken town to sustain itself off of
to make something out of

i pity the fools who fall in love
nothing that makes you feel good can last
cuz if things were in terms of forever
they’d all lose their shine too fast
Track Name: Hips
please take care of me you said and spent the night
scars disappeared as you left bruises on my thighs

you asked if you could touch my hips
because you like the way they feel
i like the way they fit with yours

hold me through the figuring out of what we don’t understand
floating in and out things never happen the way we plan them

you asked if you could touch my hips
because you like the way the way they feel
i like the way they fit with yours

you asked if you could touch my hips
but you touched much more
don’t leave me like this
Track Name: The Cautious End of Things
these rooms are so suffocating
the bricks that hold me up
are the bricks that cave me in

ghost and fingers, memories linger
somebody please make them go away

honestly i’ve been picking apart the reasons to not be
on a string anymore
honestly i’ve been moving towards the cautious end of things
why hold on anymore

your palpitations mirror mine
the bricks that you have molded
crumble around your mind

you didn’t mean it, you only said it
you didn’t mean it
please be careful with the things that you don’t understand
please be

honestly i’ve been picking apart the reasons to not be
on a string anymore
honestly i’ve been moving towards the cautious end of things
why hold on anymore

honesty is sickening when you let yourself believe
Track Name: New Coast
i don’t really know anymore what keeps me here and trying
cuz everyone’s been lying when they said they cared

i need a sunrise on a new coast
to take all this ash and turn it into something beautiful
i need a new feeling in my bones
i need a sunrise on a new coast
to take all this ash and turn it into something beautiful
i need anything that’s new at all

everyone around me is full of fire
they have reasons and sparks
they fit in with the beautiful ones
but i’ll wave goodbye soon

because i know what it’s like in the night
when the things you’ve tried to forget
they sit at the foot of your bed
because i know what it’s like in the night
when the things you’ve tried to forget
they pierce and they ramble
they won’t let me go

i need something to keep me alive
Track Name: Grayest Places
i’ve been driving to your house
underneath the inky skyline
the water froze to the glass
so i waited for you outside

stop this deprecation of the corners
where i should be safe from the grayest places
that suspend these teenagers and selfish perfect families
stop this deprecation of the corners
where i should be safe from the grayest places
that suspend me in the spaces in between

will you hold on til the new moon
i am letting go of you
are you drifting through shades of blue
i am letting go of you
Track Name: Overflowing
something so personal you keep it quiet in your hometown
this room is overflowing so we keep our eyes cast down
the only promise i will keep involves some form of haunting

break me

i’m building walls around my mind so keep your distance
if you keep from doing what you’re thinking i will keep you in my plans
the only promise you have kept was never meaning what you said

i’d rather be in my head than in your bed
if i carve deep enough i can fade away entirely
i’ll never get what gets you off, i’ll never get what gets you
all i wanted was to feel complete
Track Name: I'll Be the One Who Comes Around
back on the road again, counting down to the city lights
remembering the ways we wasted those city nights
with cold hands and close faces and mirrored eyes
we left the world behind

so when the winter sets in
i’ll be wrapped up in your sheets
knowing the new year’s coming
with new people to meet
but for tonight you’re mine
the best one i will find
so the next time you’re in town
i’ll be the one who comes around

i heard you got a job in fairfax and you fall asleep on the train
commuting from day to do day
and you find a new girl every night to fill the space
that we created

so when the summer stars to end
i’ll be headed for the coastline
knowing there’s potential to mend
and make up for lost time
but that night you were mine
still the best one i will find
so the next time you’re in town
i’ll be the one who comes around
Track Name: Darkest Nights
the last time i saw you was in the morning
blurry vision heals most everything
you taught me self medication
through the darkest nights

but i still want to wake up by your side

but i don’t change with the seasons
i’m stuck in the past
you spend your nights in the graveyards
but the sun always comes too fast

you’ve got a universe inside your head and you locked me out
twisting insides, anxiety spills out of my core and the indents of my appearance
that show my emotion, you know i don’t show that very often
to anyone but you

but i still want to wake up by your side